为什么刚开学已经有种窒息的感觉了？？？无助。。。茫然。。。。无形中的压力好像一个巨大的岩石把我整个人压住了。。。脑袋要想的东西太多了。。。这个学期的每一科都好难啊！就犹如它认识我但我不认识它似的，怎么办？所有的东西对我来说太陌生了。。。唉！把lecture notes读了又读，但还是摸不着头脑。。。唉！
泡一杯茶，独自品尝，
细细回味着甜酸苦辣；
造一条路，自己去走，起伏中体会坎坷艰难；
不要怨茶好苦，苦尽自有甘来；
不要怨路难行，坎坷后面是你的幸福。。。
自我安慰的话，就是算了吧！尽力而为就是了！加油加油加油！
三个月的假期悠闲的、充实的、幸福的、快乐的、温暖的渡过了，我再一次必须重回自己的岗位上。唉！得把依依不舍的心情撇开，又是努力读书的时候了。这三个月的充实感不在于到外头去做工赚钱，而是在家里陪陪家人，到处去寻找好吃的食物，帮妈妈做做家务，从大到小、从里到外的家务我都帮妈妈搞掂了，偶尔还载弟弟到学校去，跟可爱的小侄女、小侄儿闹成一片，又和老朋友们及久未碰面的朋友见面畅谈。周末更和家人到植物公园跑跑步，接着用早餐，还陪爸爸一起整理家外面的花园，种种花。现在家里的花园真的越来越整齐了。哈！其实还满有成就感的嘛！
这次的假期的确还玩得蛮不亦乐乎的，行街、看戏、唱K、Hotel Stay、到海边、吃火锅、回学校探望老师 …… 把所有中学时代常做的事一口气做完了。原本我还打算到吉隆坡去探望我亲爱的朋友们，到本地大学的医学院去上课，可惜呀！刚好遇上家里有些事情，行程泡汤了！好久没看连戏剧的我，这个假期看了好几套戏。一有空闲时间我、妈妈、弟弟就黏在电视机前褒剧。呵呵！其实还蛮荒废的！
在家里闲着没事我便会弄些吃的给大家吃。做ButterCake 对我来说已经是易如反掌，弟弟们最喜欢吃了，热烘烘的蛋糕出炉后，路过厨房的人便会随手拿了一块蛋糕往嘴里放。再加上如果表姐带了贤贤和brian来，那么不用一天的时间半个蛋糕便被吃光了，老实说做东西最开心便是人家爱吃啊！上个月，我还和妈妈两个人合手合脚做了CheeseCake呢！虽然是第一次做不过还真的很好吃哦！ 另外我还学会做chocolate chips & blueberry muffin和brandy fruit cake呢！不久前表姐买了scallop来，我便在scallop上放了少许蒜末、mayonise、ketchup，然后撒上cheese放进oven 烘，成了当天晚餐可口的菜肴，真的十分不错。我小的弟弟也很喜欢在厨房帮忙煮东西，令我最不愤气的是他做的龟苓膏总是比我弄的好吃很多，我还真的很不明白为什么会这样。
今年的父亲节母亲节，我和两个弟弟每人自掏腰包，叫了表姐、表姐夫、舅舅、舅母及我们一家人，在梅兰阁定了一桌盆菜请爸爸妈妈。这盆菜跟我们以前去中国吃的不一样，这里面有大虾、鲍鱼、香菇、海参、鸡肉、鱼肉、鱼鳔、花生、冬粉、鱼丸 …… 每人还有一小碗炖鲍鱼汤。哇！真的很赞！上个星期突然心血来潮，约了表姐他们到RasaSayang去吃buffet，我已经差不多一年没吃自助餐了咯，觉得十分不错，气氛又好，选择又多。那天的我们就从中午一直饱到晚上去。昨天，我和妈妈浸了苹果酒，六个星期后我回去便可以喝了。好久没喝了有点忘了它的味道是怎样的。
对了！还有一件十分开心的事哦！弟弟在一个作文比赛中拿了第二名。太意想不到了，当然还得了奖金一千令吉呢！哈哈！等九月回去可以叫他请我们去吃一餐劲的了！真的是太棒了！
时间过得很快，今天开学了，不知不觉中我便是大学二年级了。在世界每个角落的朋友们！大家一起加油吧！
今天又考完两个试，本来应该很轻松，但收到了十分坏的消息。我的心情很沉重。。虽然不是我的亲人，但还是有所感触。树欲静而风不止，子欲养而亲不在。父母的恩情我们做子女是怎么能还清呢？永远永远还不完。。身在外地使我深深感受到家人对我而言是十分十分的重要，在我心里占据了无可取代的位置。爸爸妈妈。。谢谢你们！
大学生依然是学生，还有假期让我们回到家人身边陪陪他们。。做工以后还有酱多时间陪伴他们吗。。人生就是那么的无奈。。唉！
感恩让我拥有一个温暖的家庭。。感谢你们在我最需要支持时永远在我身边。。
终于还剩下最后一科，就考完试了。。现在的心情真的真的很迫不及待要回家。。突然间好想念好想念所有的人–爸爸，妈妈，伟翔，伟政，姐姐，姐夫，贤贤，佳蓉，诗莹，伟雯，carol。。。。。。。等等等等。。。。。还有还有最亲爱的巧雯。。。哈哈！
想念我的房间。。
想念我的家。。。
有时候读书读到很累。。
就想起以前和大家一起奋斗读书的日子。。
就会想起妈妈把泡参捧到我面前来。。
想念考得不是很满意时爸爸的安慰。。他总会说不要紧的啦！下次读多一点就可以了。。
虽然天天妈妈都会打电话对我嘘寒问暖。。
但始终总是隔着一段距离。。
哈哈！突然想起以前还没考完试就打算到哪里哪里去玩的时候喔。。
呵呵！
难怪常听人家说到外地读书的人都会觉得家是最温暖的。。
现在的我深深的体会到了。。
再等多两天吧！加油咯！！！
Eat until very full now..suddenly got a feeling wan2 write down smth here..tonite is our residence 3 pot luck.there is a variety of food..all quite nice also de ar..otho my cluster just cook chicken soup..not much special..but trust me!quite nice eh..Wah!!studying in NUS de time really pass through very fast..2moro edi week 4 liao le..basically..life can be described like that..morning wake up..after breakfast..do some revision..print lecture notes..preparing go2 study..rush 4 lecture rush 4 tutorial rush 4 lab..hehe..but me math major de not doin experiment need lab coat de lab..in fact is computer lab ler..dont get confused oo..wahaha..finish lesson then is evening le..the worst thing 4 me in this semester is 1 week 5 days me 3 days have class till 8pm..OH GOSH!!!..sometime quite tiring ler..u cannot imagine after busy whole day insert a lot a lot of thing into brain until 8pm then reach my room that kind of relief de feeling is reali..dont know how to say..some sort like ‘wah..finally i reach home le..’ hehe..actually..life like this is quite chong shi yet quite dan diao de..y say so?coz after reach room finish doin homework..sleep..the next morning repeat same thing again..otho not the same lecture n tutorial everyday la..but the style is quite similar..izit uni life all so busy 1?later on i believe i’l got math society de thing have to busy liao le..hopefully wont be categorised into "meeting society" la..1 more fun thing here is my learning of german..it’s reali fun oo..Deutsch macht viel Spaβ..plus today jing ran let me know that got people majoring in german linguistik in UM oo..haha..can communicate 2gth in the rojak language of german n english..very qi dai end of sept goin bac to penang ler..wan2 meet up with my old good friends ler..looking forward to c them oo!!
Let go got different meaning to different people..i choose my own way of letting go..After struggle for so so so long time..it’s time to let go of everything..i guess to those it’s concern it should be a more relaxing way in solving the matter..life still have to continue no matter how..i believe all my dearest friends wont leave me alone without care about me when i need them de..i guess la..haha..plus..i still got my family..the greatest support so that i can strive through it..in fact the route before also is i walked through without anyone’s hand..now just going back into the past time..dont ever take anything for granted and have to learn to get used back..it’s a lesson for me..1st lesson for me in my uni life in spore..in fact it’s a painful and bloody lesson..and leave such a great impact to me..i dont know need how much time to settle down my heart back..but i’ll gambate oo!i have to learn to grow up..dont always got so naive thinking..however..im grateful n feel thankful to god give me chance to own before..it’s a sweet and happy and my ‘1st’ memory to me if the following part can be deleted..maybe i can programme my brain to remember until a certain part..then i draw a big big big fullstop..haha..but..izit possible?i doubt..ok..eyes closing..have to go2 sleep d..take care ya all my friends in every part of the world..wish everyone xing fu and happy!
Sometime when you did not experience something..you wont know it’s in fact so much much important to yourself..far more important than what i expect..already rooted inside my heart..bcum part of my heart..but no1 know..not that i dont appreciate when i have the chance..i just dont understand why i keep on doing wrong thing and make condition worse..i know no1 can help me also cannot seek help from any1 else..aih..i dont know what can i do..i duno..help!!!i wan2 explode le!!!!semester almost start le..my mind stil got too muc concern..i duno how to study..i wan2 do the best but i just kip on goin the wrong way..izit my problem?i pretty sure is my own problem..but what problem is that?mayb hav2 change me attitude and perspect towards something..aih..i noe this short passage is very abstract..i duno what im trying to say also..just wan2 shu fa it out..huh..
University school life full of lectures and tutorial is coming soon..i am wondering what will it be..it’s indeed a totally new study environment and totally new way of teaching and studying..some more this semester i will take german language..dunno i can cope or not..bcz i understd me myself is not gud in language..but..some how give myself a try also lar..
It has been 2weeks i reached spore..1st time away from my lovely home, sweet room, comfortable bed, mummy n daddy who love me, little girl that i look after her since she was borned..actually..until now i still very very miss my home..honestly i cried that night when mummy give me a hug ask me take care..really too much she bu de..haha..silly me..luckily now adapt to this new environment le..got my very very best friend stand by me give me support..everything consider going into the right path le..i believed nus is a very nice place to study..just that really really have to work hard throughout this 4 years lo..have to strive and to struggle in order to success..hmm..not only me la..all friends in local uni, in UK, in US, in Australia, in Indonesia, in Japan…….also gambate together oo!!!!
